Stop!

So what's a girl to do? I had a dream that I had to take O out of school early to see the dentist (I do actually have to take him out of school twice next week - one time being for a hospital appointment). We had to race to find the dentist as it had moved (and never mind the fact that I haven't been near him for the last four years- well he keeps threatening me with stuff...) Anyway, we can't find the dentist and we are on Victoria Street in Douglas. P is with us by now and he and O are suddenly on their bikes. N has also joined us (where did he spring from?) We are crossing the road via a zebra crossing (which doesn't really exist as it's a pelican in reality). We cross. N and I are over to the other side when a car with an old man at the wheel drives up the wrong way up this one way street. We scream at him to stop but he hits O and doesn't stop. I phone for an ambulance straight away and we tend to O at the side of the road. We think he's going to be ok but there's no ambulance. I phone again because I realise I've forgotten to tell the emergency services exactly where we are and an ambulance has been roaming Douglas all this time trying to find us apparently.

I wake up and O presents me with a letter from school telling us that year 6 are to start cycling proficiency next week...

The Clock Had Stopped

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Picture of Dreams

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Down, down, down...

... Would the fall never come to an end?

It's very easy to become despondent when things don't go to plan. Trick is to pick yourself up and start again...

On a different note, I went for a run last night - when I say run, it was more like a gentle jog... punctuated with some walking - OK - a lot of walking. I went with a friend and my oldest son (youngest was playing football). So, there was the football pitch and the athletic track side by side, then a track all the way around the outside of the two - this is the track we used. We managed four laps (O did five) and I did manage to keep running (jogging lol) for the whole of the last lap. It was a bit of a caucus race though, where we picked up and left off whenever we felt like it. So, I guess we all won and all should have had prizes!

Hunting Snarks...

I wonder if this is a good sign? (I'm sure it is!) I found myself dreaming about certain plot elements - well, when I say dreaming, I was actually waking up from the dream and trying desperately hard to cling on to the details. It's like a very delicate piece of paper with ideas and important notes written on it which you must memorise before the whole thing disintegrates into dust. I didn't need to think twice, if ever a sign was more obvious that I must crack on and do it, this was it.

I got the essence - which has spurred me on to finally work on a synopsis. (Hey - I'm not the only one who procrastinates over writing a synopsis - so don't be too hard on me!) It's a start and at least I can now see a glimmer of light at the end of the tunnel. It might be handy at this point to find a tiny golden key on a three legged glass table, together with a bottle marked "Drink me."

I often give myself very good advice (but very rarely follow it...)

While Bushy is having her crisis up there, I thought I would see what's going on down here... Not a lot it would seem! It's true what she's saying; I do need to get my life in order. Starting from now, I will not:

- be distracted by Emails and internet.
- laze around in bed for too long, daydreaming about what life could be like if only I could get up an hour earlier. Why not just... get up an hour earlier?
- procrastinate any more...!

Roughly, in no particular order, this is my writing "To do" list:-

Editing

1. NaNo 2004 (a fantasy novel - not in your traditional sense)
2. NaNo 2005 (a sort of sequel to 2004's effort - both need a LOT of work - especially this one)
3. NaNo 2006 (a complete change of direction)

4. Several short stories to polish up and sub - I want to find a home for all of them!

Writing

5 & 6. Two collaborative projects (one of which might end up becoming NaNo 2007...)

7. A Mystery/Romance just started (as an experiment - can I work with this genre?)

8. A couple of short stories for two (Skeelley) anthologies.

And there we have it; something that looks ever so cunningly like - a plan! (I just have to find the time to put some of it into action now...)

Lazy Summer Days...

...Don't you sometimes yearn for them? I remember those long summer days when I had nothing better to do than to please myself. I always used to make big plans for the summer holidays - it always seemed like they would go on forever. The tragedy is, I never really made the most of them.

Now I'm in a panic. I feel time slipping, running away as fast as it can. It's very much a case of, "Oh dear! Oh dear! I shall be too late!" If I'm not careful, I'll have that nasty queen acusing me of murdering the time. I know I've bitten off far more than I can chew (and as I lost another tiny piece of filling from an already dodgy tooth yesterday, I'm in a somewhat precarious position).

I want to make a difference and I need to get on with it... now!

You know, I read a couple of truly dreadful stories recently. They were published, sort of mini novels (novellas? long short stories?) The storylines were OK but the writing left a lot to be desired. Two dimensional characters spouting off clunky dialogue (just because it's in quotation marks, does not make it "show not tell.") Then there was the really clumsy plotting - an absolute disgrace and a real waste of an otherwise good idea. In one of them, the editing was atrocious - I lost count of all the sloppy typos and continuity errors. Someone is actually publishing these! I know I can do so much better - it's so depressing.

The time has come to stop procrastinating (before it becomes my middle name) and get on with it.

Mmmm... I love purple!

Your Passion is Purple!

You've got a ton of passion, but you don't always wear it on your sleeve. If something truly excites you, you let your inner intensity shine through. But otherwise, your passion tends to morph into energy ... which you never lack. You're a balanced woman, knowing when to turn on the fire in your heart.

What Type of Passionate Woman Are You?

I need of a major declutter...

Your Mind is 87% Cluttered

Your mind is incredibly cluttered. You have so much going on in there, it's hard to think straight. Consider talking to a therapist. It's a good idea to sort through your thoughts, if only to see which ones are worth hanging on to.

How Cluttered is Your Mind?

So what can you do? Get it all out, I'd say, then organise it into little storage boxes. Better still, let go of a few things and start again. It's the story of my life, but now is the time to take action. I have to stop being the white rabbit, always late, often caught in the headlights. I must stop murdering the time, or else the Queen of Hearts will notice and order "Off with her head!"

Déjà Vu

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Flowers...?

I have this overwhelming desire to get back to nature... I need to take some time out and listen to the birds singing, smell and feel the earth. I've been going through a bit of a '60s phase at the moment, courtesy of Love and Jefferson Airplane. Perhaps I'm being influenced by flower power? There is a definite hint of spring in the air and I don't want to miss it - any of it!

Feeling Dreamy!

What Your Dreams Mean...

Your dreams seem to show that you're a bit disturbed... but nothing serious. You may have a problem you're trying to work out in your sleep. Overall, you are very content in your life. You tend to be a very productive thinker. Your dreams tend to reflect your insecurities. You have a very vivid imagination and a rich creative mind.

What Do Your Dreams Mean?

It's been a while...

...since I posted. Well, I've been away - that's my excuse and I'm sticking to it. I've put some kind of account up on Bushy's page and as you can see, if you can be bothered to read that, as holidays go, it was a bit of a disaster really lol!

Happy New Year! I did have a strange vibey feeling about 2007 - watch this space!